idealism--> huuuuuuuuuuge gray area <--cynicism
Prior to college I was a pretty good conservative/moderate Christian girl. Post-college I am an okay moderately liberal agnostic woman. All the education, from religion to philosophy to history to literature, has done one thing: Complicated the whole damn world.
People on JU often like to point out (with some degree of arrogance, it seems), seeing things in black and white is for simpletons; to be an intellectual, the whole world must be a massive gray area, a continuum from the lightest to the darkest where right and wrong are not obvious but oblivious. And, it seems, heaven forbid you have convictions if you don't have the experience to back them up.
And I count myself, altogether too often, among those who say "the issue is not black and white." For example, upon first reading stevendedalus's thread on "hospital horrors," I thought that malpractice suits are the problem. But after googling and reading articles from doctors, lawyers, and reporters that all have different slants and motives, it's hard to know what to believe. No longer are, in my mind, the lawyers alone to blame....but who is? And most importantly, what can we do about it with so many special interest groups lobbying for their own interests, not what is good for the majority?
Research and education do not sharpen the blackness or whiteness of issues. I have bits of admiration and perhaps even jealousy for people who can still make categorical statements, inbetweenst my cynicism. But it's okay to be an idealist. I'm not one anymore and I blame, for the most part, the shitload of information that came along with my college degrees. Now it's hard to decide between abortion and pro-life, Bush and Kerry, malpractice caps and jury awards, grad schools, war, terrorists, religions.....