Published on January 30, 2004 By Angloesque In Blogging
Partially because I'm a masochist (according to its secondary definition), I go through every single comment anyone ever posts on anything I've ever posted. I analyze it to pieces, get mad, write a stinging reaction which I then e-mail to myself, wait a few hours or days, then write a reply which I post. Then I sit nervously, wondering if I accidentally pissed anyone off, and my heart beats a little too fast when I see that there is a new comment.

Another reason I hate my field of study, journalism: I hate criticism. I really do. Once upon a time I wrote a news article for my college paper about how our church's general conference was creating a board to oversee theology and make sure it was in line with traditional church beliefs. I have my own perceptions on the matter, which I tried to keep at bay. I interviewed most of the religion faculty and called a few people in church politics, mostly getting machines and no comments. At deadline, I submitted the article.

Our school newspaper was available online for quite awhile, and this reprobate from Texas got on there and accused me of bias, liberalism, etc., and then he misspelled my name, along with about 40% of the words in his article. I should've ignored it, but I didn't. I defended myself and admonished his poor spelling, in so many words. Now, on his own forum, he constantly lambasts me and refers to me as a b*tch or a "witch, which should be spelled with a B *wink*."

Having learned my lesson, I avoid putting myself in situations that invite criticism. Until a year ago when I decided to teach.

I teach two classes, sections A and F (ironically). Section A is horrible: they just sit there. They don't do homework. They don't turn stuff in. Half of them are failing due to my no-late-work policy (is that such a hard concept to understand?). Then there's my F class. They talk, they laugh, they turn stuff in, they enjoy it. A class: glares at me every morning. F class: greets me when I walk in the door. A class: says snide things about me when they think I can't hear. F class: says snide things about other teachers in front of me. And I teach the same stuff in both classes.

The chemistry within the two classes is absolutely polarizing. I'm looking forward to my student evaluations from one class, and not the A class. Then I'll write my sardonic responses and e-mail them to myself, to read over my angst. I think I give myself ulcers. Very unhealthy. Must find new career.
on Jan 30, 2004
I feel for you. Teaching is a tough job and a thankless one :0(

Duality is a funny thing. It can cause serious neurosis and insanity at times, but I wouldn't trade my duality in for anything. It gives me two sides at all times to view things, which most people are incapable of perceiving. Most just run on one side of the duality. Seeing and trying to keep the Yin and Yang both held together and happy at the same time is next to impossible ~chuckles~. In one class you are mocked because someone perhaps started that trend in that class(someone popular). In the second class perhaps that flow went the other direction. It is perfectly natural if one understands human nature ~chuckles~.

Why don't you ask the bad class why they dislike you? I am sure they will be more than happy to tell you ~grins~ Then interweave it into whatever subject your are teaching (if applicable) and/or explain to the bad class that other classes like you and react differently. Bring up the question: Why the difference?

There is nothing wrong with your policies. Most kids just hate authority ~chuckles~ But they need to learn about accountability at some point in life. You are just speeding it up for them. I didn't learn about accountability until I was 30 years old. Better late than never I guess ~chuckles~